Here I am, still holding on...

HEY HEY HEYYYY FOREAL I GOT A NEW LJ BECAUSE THIS ONE IS FUCKED UP CRAZY SHIT.



ADD ME, NOW.

didn't do a lot this weekend. friday we hung out with TOM TOM.. thats the funniest nigga i know. we got somethin FREE ;) and a lot of it! me meggie kylie kelli & brooke stayed at meggies and woke up early the next morning. went to lexie's dance recital.. it was so cute! me and kylie took meghan's car to my house and layed around then got dressed. picked meg back up from blythe island and they dropped me off with dave and we went to his house for a minute before he had to work.. then me meg heidi hadley & lexie went to kylie's recital. left there and hung out with frankie b for a lil bit then i came home and passssssssed out.. and slept really good.

happy mothers day:) me and my mommy ate at kyoto express today YUM


i'm gonna be 18 in 9 days... and WE graduate in 11 days!
It aint hit me yet but i get the chills thinking about it


i'm not tired at all cause i slept late today..... but i have nothing else to do so i guess i'm going to sleep.

today has been 4 years since Ashley died :-(







tomorrow is friday and i have a shitload of make up work today



look at the love note my 8 year old little brother got today!

Taylor i love you so much why dont you love me? i'm sorry i get mad at you sometimes but you can make me mad sometimes. dont tell anyone that i wrote this o.k.? i'll be so "inbearisted" dont tell jake at all. or any of your friends or your family either. tell me the truth do you love me yes or no dont say i dont know say yes or no CIRCLE YES OR NO.
oh and taylor after you answer return this to the 17th desk in the class but first count megan. bye bye.
ps right back. oh i'm the 3rd desk from ashley

I'M STRESSED OUT.


( my life in a song )

I had a bad day. I can't pretend to be happy when I'm not anymore.


Sunday Shoes, Cap and Gown
The whole town gathered around
Waited 18 years now it’s all comin down to this
I scanned the crowd and it fills my soul
My best friends all here in rows
No turning back, Now its time to walk that line
This tassel is gonna turn
But when the moment passes by
We’ll just walk away
Then slowly grow apart

But I’m not gonna cry, no
Not one sad or happy tear
I’ve waited my whole life
Now I’m gonna fly right outta here
It’s a bittersweet goodbye, but I’m not gonna cry

Friday night, football games,
First loves and first heartbreaks
It didnt matter who won or lost,
Only how we played,
Memories as good as gold,
Tearin' up those mountain roads,
racin' out 53, to old georgetown,
sure we made a little trouble,
but learned from every mistake,
so theres no regret,
we've done the best we could

so im not gonna cry, no
not one sad or happy tear
ive waited my whole life
now im gonna fly right outta here
these have been the best years of my life
so im not gonna cry

its been a lonely, winding journey
and we've lost a few along the way
still we've hung in there through the tribulations
now its time to celebrate
its our graduation day

so im not gonna cry
not one sad or happy tear
ive waited my whole life
so im gonna fly right outta here
this has been the best day of my life, so im not gonna cry
its a bittersweet goodbye, im not gonna cry



DOWNLOAD THAT. COREY SMITH- I'm not gonna cry.
damn I'm gonna miss high school

friday was me brooke samo and kylie night. we stayed at my house and ate too much. they had prom saturday. i didnt really do anything. i had to work at 4 and we were on an hour wait from 6-10.. i finally got off and went to the hill...... and after that i don't remember shit and its bothering me. i hate not remembering:( i've had a bad day and i just wanna go stay with meggie. ANYWAY. i donno right now. i'm all ugh feeling i just wanna go to sleep.

OOOOOPPSIE. i havent updated in a minute. i got my car back tuesday and its still fucked up but its getting fixed next wednesday. for the front its gonna be $1865 plus i gotta fix the back so its gonna be like $2600 total. but i got the money to do it thank god. anyway. i havent had a good day. mallory took the straightner this morning so im having a bad hair day. dad likes to yell at 7:30 AM. mrs. spangler is a FUCKING BITCH and i got my 25th write up today. FUCK.


but its friday. and tomorrow is samobaby and b-rooke's prom soooooooooo we gettin down afterwards! ;) i'm hungry. but im about to go home to clean my room to make my dad satisfied.





oh and p.s. i like text messages that make me go :)


I'LL GIVE YOU MY PROM PICTURES IF YOU GIVE ME ONE OF YOURS:)

WELL. i wrecked my car today. i ran into the back of someone oopsieeee. i've got like $6grand in the bank so i'm gonna fix the front AND back of my car then hopefully have 3grand left and some of daddy's money and graduation money for a DOWN PAYMENT on a new car. but i'm not sure what i want. ISS again tomorrow... atleast we can sleep now! YAY.

( LOOK AT THIS SHIT! )

the weekend turned out good. friday night we went out to crosbys then me and kylie came back to my house and i did something really weird. my phone kept ringing and i remember turning that bitch off but for some reason the next morning i couldnt find my phone..... we turned my room UPSIDE DOWN tryin to find it. well i walk into the bathroom and my phone is laying there with the battery next too it... and i donno why the fuck i did that but whatever sarah your dumb. K ANYWAYYYYYYYY. we got up at like 8 and i took kylie home. met ashley and we hung out and went and got our boutinerres for justin & zach and got our dresses steamed. met brooke then samo later and hung out. i had to go to the shop at 3 and did my hair and i did my makeup cause i was boredddd. all the senior guys and their dates met at stephens house to take pictures at 5:45 but of course i was the last one there haha. alll the guys looked so freakin good in their white tux! we went to dinner at christies and they serve shit in very small portions. JUSTIN & NUT GOT UP IN THE RESTAURANT and did the lean wid it rock wid it dance hahaha. thennnnnnnn we went to prom. and i figured shit its gonna be lame again but it was actually crunk once everyone started dancinggggggg! we left around 11 and went over to megan good's... i had to leave and meet kylie before she went to jax then i went out to the hill to get my nigggga b-rooooke and that shit WAS LAMEEEEEEE. so we lefttttt and came back to meggies and passed the fuck out. today was nothinn. hungout with brooke and samo all day til brooke had go to work. and i seriously cant believe i just typed all this shit because if i was yall i wouldnt wannna read it. but i have tight pictures! and everyone looked so gorgeous last night:)


LISTEN TO THIS SHIT. me and brooke went to mcdonalds when we left the hill at like 3 this morning. well i was talkin to dave and he was like all girls are the devil blah blah blah... well we ordered our food and our freakin amount was $6.66. i'm possessed :O


( i said shitttt damnnnnn get off yo ass and jamm! )

everybody has damn attitudes today fuckkkkkkkkk. i went to sleep early last night so im sleeeepy. prom is in 2 days yay i guess i'm kinda excited. i could be more excited...shit. i wanna go to ga prom and i might be goin :) samoooo and brooke baby i love yall :) NTWAY i'm broke and i hate hearing shit about him fuck i hate guysssssssssssssssssssssss peace out

Travis seriously just made me cry my eyes out:( UGH. i hate this week i'm ready for it to be OVER. i gotta work tomorrow. i'm probably gonna start waitressing at crabtrap when I turn 18 which by the way is in 29 days WHATTTTTTTTT. but i donno about that........ kinda askin for drama. HAAAAAAAAHAAAAAA. ANYWAYYYYYYY i got wrote up AGAIN today and now i have ISS monday and tuesday. WHAT THE FUCK.





AND THOUGH MY HEART CAN'T TAKE NO MORE I KEEP ON RUNNIN BACK TO YOU

WELL, can't say I didn't have a good weekend. Friday night me kylie and meggie went to eat at mudcats. I went over to sam's for a minute then me and kylie came back to my house at like 12:30 and crasheddddddddd. She woke me up at like 7:30 yesterday morning........then I started gettin some random text messages. finally got up and went to chickfila then I took her to folkston. picked someone up on the way back and we went back to meggies and slept alllll damn day. yesterday was so not productive. finally about 5 we got up and met jamie at grandys. UMmmmmmmmmmmmm me meg dana heidi and brad went to the races last night and we had tooooooo much fun!;) went to mickey d's at 2 then went to megs and went to sleep. i had to work this morning but i got to sleep in til 11. work was CRAZY today. we were on a wait from 11-4. i finally left and met dave & kevin and we went to crab trap to see brooke and jamieeee. i had to go home but i went and talked to sam and meggie first :) now i'm home..........bored............sleepy.............. and pissed:) but its all good

TODAY WAS GOOD.


( ole no life ass nigga )

24th write up today. GO SARAH. haha she took my cell phone but i'm good and i got that bitch back. happy 4-20 niggas! i still got 2 more times of celebration;)


( my phoneeeeeeey )

mmmmmm mmmmm mmmmmm tomorrow is 4/20. i've had a good past few days and i want it to stay that way..... but shit probably notttttt for long. oh well. PROM IS NEXT WEEKEND, i'm excited :-)


and i'm ready for tomorrrrrrroww

hahahah this morning just started out GOOD. and I'm having a good day. I ate lunch with samobaby at michaels deli..........i love herrrrrrr!!! YAY. i'm about to go pick smangmonster up from school and we going to da boys and girls club WHATTTTTTTTTTWHATTTTTTTTT




hey........ Ain't nothing changed :D :)

I gotta start remembering the damn weekends. I know I went to beach a lot and got burnt. and today is easter.... OH HAPPY EASTER. I ate too much today... and I got 2 easter baskets cause I'm still 6 ya know!? ANYWAY. for anyone who knows what I'm talkin about... I WON the little "you'll call me first blah blah blah" war. haha mother fucker. LOL'n at that bitch. ANYWAYYY. My finger is still swollen from when I hit my car the other night so I cant wear my damn ring.......... but it was definitely worth that hit. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH yuhhhhhhhh I love kylie and meggie and samiamsam and b-rooke and heidiho and angmonster and meggiepie and a bunch of you others YUP. tomorrow is my last day at the tax office.





But it doesn't matter what they say or do
CAUSE AINT NOTHIN CHANGED
He's standin with her
But his soul is callin out my name.........


( mmm hmmm they new )

I think my hand is broken from punching my car.... and a wall. but it felt fuckin good. fuck all that shit. but I'M the bullshitter... hahahahahahahahahahaah FUCK YOU. depressing songs make me feel so much better.. i dont know how but i swear. i hope im going to the beach tomorrow. and i hope my grades arent what i'm expecting.

HM

i still gotta get prom shoes


megan remind me to tell you something

ERICA DANIELLE PEEPLES YOU'RE STILL MY BEST FRIEND AND I LOVE YOU SO ENTIRELY MUCH BABY GIRLLL :)

i got a new FREE phone yesterday.... but i lost all my ringtones and its being stupid and the ones i downloaded last night wont show up. fucker

homeroom seems like the longest class of the day. i dont have to work todayyyYAYY
my eyes are burning and i forgot to get a check from daddy for my cap and gown shit and my announcements and all that
SHIT

I wish I could push a button and make everything all better. I don't like this one minute good one minute bad shit.


I loveeeeeeee my new ringtone. I changed a bunch of peoples ringtones on my phone.... and I got some new ones so my mommy is gonna kill me. And my powerpoint for senior project is so freakin adorable:)



In my mind I'll always be his lady
In my mind I'll always be his girl
Only time will tell if I'm his lady
But in my mind I'll always be his girl
They say if you love somethin you've got to let it go
And if it comes back then it means so much more

dammit we get progress reports thursday and my grade in marketing is allll fucked up
i really need to finish my novanet class but im too lazy to go
my last day working here is mondayyyy. so i get out of school at 1 and goin to the beach e'er day
YUPPPPPPPPPP




I cant unthink about you
I cant unfeel your touch
I cant unhear all the words
Unsay all the things
That used to mean so much
I wish I could unremember
Everything my heart has been through
And finding out its impossible to do
Oh it's no use
I can't unlove you.

I need you like water
Like breath, like rain
I need you like mercy
From heaven's gate
There's a freedom in your arms
That carries me through
I need you....

And it's so amazing
cause that's just how you are
And I can't turn back now
cause you've brought me too far

brooke likes to leave her keys in my car

i'm having one of those nights where i'm sitting here thinking about everything. and i smile one minute and then i think about shit that i shouldnt and get all sad. one word to describe a lot im thinking about is BULLSHIT BULLSHIT BULLSHIT. that was 3 words but fuckkkkkkkk. there wasnt SHIT to do this weekend. i don't remember friday. saturday me and sam went to the beach for like 5 minutes and it was cold. so we woke up brooke's lazy ass and went and ate 4th of may. i had to go pick out what vest i wanted justin to wear then i went and fell asleep with meghan. we picked kylie up from folkston and came back and watched just friends and TAL and david came over. that movie is so freakin cute. but i fell asleep and they were gonna leave me on the couch BY MYSELF!:( but i got the comfortable bed:) and i had freakin 6 missed calls at like 4am... once again.. BULLSHIT. hahahah thats what i say. anyway. i had to work this morning and ive discovered that i dont like working without bekah. i wanna start at crab trap with b-roooooooke. anyway. i cant get anything out of my mind. i should be sleeping but i cant. it seems like every sunday night i lay down and just roll around for hours. and by the time i get to sleep, its time to wake up again. SHIT.

can we get a little closerrrrrrrr babyyyyyyyyy. i have pretty ricky stuck in my head and i'm ready for 12:40 so i can go to the beach. SAMOBABY dont forget to calllllllll me i luh you





SMILEYFACE.

( adslkfjalkdf )

I wish my throat would stop hurtin and that I would stop coughing......................any day now. me and alisha got the cutest beach chairs today at cvs. BEACH TOMORROW :)







And I guess its safe baby, safe to say
That I, I'm officially missing you.
Oh can't nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do
Hey baby say it stays on my mind
And I, I'm officially........

Well I thought I could just get over you baby
But I see that's something I just can't do
From the way you would hold me, to the sweet things you told me.....
I just can't find a way
to let go of youuuuu

I'm gonna have CHRONIC BRONCHITIS because of this 798million pieces of ice dumped on me plus the air being on in this damn room.









AND THE SPOT AINT CRUNK BITCH IF WE AINT IN IT
you aint fresh AZWEIZ!

got out of school today and got my air fixed.. theres the plus side of this entry

THE DOWN SIDE.
i wanted to go to the beach but all my shit was in brunswick. i call samo and she has an extra bathing suit and she thought she had an extra beach chair. well mom is being a bitch and turns my cell phone off. we get to the beach, samo didnt have another chair after all hehe it was ok cause i just used meghans.
WELL HERE WE GO. me lacie and carli are laying out and josh decides to dump a HUGE HUGE cooler full of ice all over me. so then im FREEEEEEEZING. water gets all in my cell phone. so not only do i have to get the bitch turned back on.......... but i have to get a new one.

HMM. I am b-o-r-e-d. and i'm a dumbass. the wire came out of my speaker and i noticed, just didnt think anything of it. so now it works again:) and im about to take my car to get my air fixed YAYYYYY. anddd i wanted to go to the beach today but i'm sick and its cold. i've got one contact in and this shit is fuckin me alll up so peaceeeeeeeeee nigga OH WAITTTTT yesterday me and josh and kevin discovered that my car can be a stick shift WHATTTTTTTTTTTT




........HEY ASHLEY ELIZABETH GATCH, YOU'RE A DWEEB.